10 months
I think I've never been so scared of anything, the way I am scared at the moment. It is so hard to describe and express my feelings. Because I can't say I am happy but I also can't say that I am sad. The only thing I can say for sure is that I am super scared. I am scared of leaving because I know it will never be the same again. When I tell people that I am scared, they don't really understand why I am scared. The thing they tell me most of the time is 'You came to a completely foreign country to live here for a year, and survived it so why are you scared now of going back to Germany, where you already know everything?' And I mean what they say is not wrong. About almost 10 months ago I came to a completely new place, where I didn't really know anyone and where I have never been before. I lived for almost 10 months without my family and I left everything I knew. In the 10 months I've been here I met so many people. I grew close to people and also